登陆注册
9133900000083

第83章 RECORD TWENTY-THREE(2)

Sweet, sharp white teeth—a smile. In the open cup of the armchair she was like a bee, sting and honey combined.

Yes, duty....I turned over in my mind the pages of my records; indeed there is not a thought about the fact that strictly speaking I should...

I was silent. Exaltedly, and probably stupidly, I smiled, looking into the pupils of her eyes. I followed first one eye and then the other, and in each of them I saw myself, a millimetric self imprisoned in those tiny rainbow cells. Then again the lips and the sweet pain of blooming.

In each Number of the United State there is an unseen metronome that tick-tocks silently; without looking at the clock we know exactly the time of day within five minutes. But now my metronome had stopped, and I did not know how much time had passed. In fright I grasped my badge with its clock from under the pillow. Glory be to the Well-Doer! I had twenty minutes more! But those minutes were such tiny, short ones! They ran! And I wanted to tell her so many things. I wanted to tell her all about myself; about the letter from O- and about that terrible evening when I gave her a child; and for some reason also about my childhood, about our mathematician Plappa, and about the square root of minus one; and how, when I attended the glorification on the Day of Unanimity for the first time in my life, I wept bitterly because there was an inkstain on my unif—on such a holy day!

I-330 lifted her head. She leaned on her elbow. In the corners of her lips two long, sharp lines and the dark angle of lifted eyebrows—a cross.

"Perhaps on that day..." her brow grew, darker; she took my hand and pressed it hard. "Tell me, will you ever forget me? Will you always remember me?"

"But why such talk? What is it, I-, dear? "

She was silent. And her eyes were already sliding past me, through me, away into the distance. I suddenly heard the wind beating the glass with its enormous wings. Of course it had been blowing all the while, but I had not noticed it until then. And for some reason those cawing birds over the Green Wall came to my mind.

I-330 shook her head with a gesture of throwing something off. Once more she touched me for a second with her whole body, as an aero before landing touches the ground for a second with all the tension of a recoiling spring.

"Well, give me my stockings, quick!"

The stockings were on the desk, on the open manuscript, on page 124. Being in haste, I caught some of the pages and they were scattered over the floor, so that it was hard to put them back in the proper order. Moreover, even if I put them in that order there will be no real order; there are obstacles to that anyway, some undiscoverable unknowns.

"I can"t bear it," I said. "You are here, near me, yet you seem to be behind an opaque ancient wall; through that wall I hear a rustle and voices; I cannot make out the words, I don"t know what is there. I cannot bear it. You seem always to withhold something from me; you have never told me what kind of place it was where I found myself that day beneath the Ancient House. Where did those corridors lead? Why was the doctor there—or perhaps all that never happened?"

I-330 put her hands on my shoulders and slowly entered deeply into my eyes.

"You want to know all?"

"Yes, I do."

"And you would not be afraid to follow me anywhere? Wherever I should lead you?"

"Anywhere!"

"All right then. I promise you, after the holiday, if only ...Oh, yes, there is your Integral. I always forget to ask; will it soon be completed?"

"No. "If only" what? Again! "If only" what?"

She, already at the door: "You shall see."

I was alone again. All that she left behind her was a barely perceptible scent, similar to that of a sweet, dry, yellow dust of flowers from behind the Green Wall; also, sunk deeply within me, question marks like small hooks similar to those the ancients used for fishing (vide the Prehistoric Museum).

...Why did she suddenly ask about the Integral?

同类推荐
  • 影响深远的海洋战争

    影响深远的海洋战争

    《影响深远的海洋战争》收录了古今中外发生在海洋上的经典战争,每一篇都详细介绍了战争发生的历史背景、艰辛过程和隐藏的故事。包括:中国最早的海战、西西里海战、羊河海战、勒班陀海战、露梁海战、特拉法尔加大海战、阿索斯海战、中日甲午海战、日俄对马海战、美西海战、英德罗内尔海战、达达尼尔海战、日德兰海战、美日中途岛海战等。海洋战争,顾名思义是指发生在广阔的海平面上的战争。海洋战争历史悠久,对于看过大量陆地战争的读者朋友们来说,海洋战争是难以想像的,它比陆地战争更艰难、更惊险。
  • 中国中篇小说年度佳作2011

    中国中篇小说年度佳作2011

    什么才是中篇小说的佳作?在我看来,至少应该包括两点:它既应该是好看的小说,也应该是有文学意蕴的小说。找好看的小说不难,找有文学意蕴的小说也不难,但要找二者兼于一身的小说就有点难了。收入这本集子里的中篇小说虽然不能说都做到了二者完美的结合,但我们能够感觉到作者在两方面都有所追求。一个作家在写中篇小说时,能够做到既追求好看,也追求文学意蕴,就已经站在佳作的起点上了。中篇小说写作的难度也就在这里,因为作者在追求好看的时候难免伤及文学意蕴,在追求文学意蕴时又难免伤及好看。中篇小说作家实在是面临一个“鱼与熊掌”的难题呀!但中篇小说的佳作必须是“鱼”与“熊掌”的复合体。
  • 美国悲剧

    美国悲剧

    描写了主人公克莱德·格里菲思受到社会上邪恶影响,逐渐蜕变、堕落为凶杀犯、最后自我毁灭的全过程。
  • 窗帘后的男人(悬念大师希区柯克经典故事集)

    窗帘后的男人(悬念大师希区柯克经典故事集)

    希区柯克对杀人狂的一段评论,很典型地表明了他对这类人的态度,他说:“人们常常认为,罪犯与普通人是大不相同的。但就我个人的经验而言,罪犯通常都是相当平庸的人,而且非常乏味,他们比我们日常生活中遇到的那些遵纪守法的老百姓更无特色,更引不起人们的兴趣。罪犯实际上是一些相当笨的人,他们的动机也常常很简单、很俗气”。希区柯克认为人是非常脆弱的,他们经不起诱惑。
  • 白雪红灯笼

    白雪红灯笼

    甫跃辉, 1984年生,云南保山施甸县人,复旦大学首届文学写作专业小说方向研究生毕业,师从作家王安忆。在《人民文学》《大家》《花城》《中国作家》《青年文学》《上海文学》《长城》等文学期刊发表中国短篇小说。获得2009年度“中环”杯《上海文学》短篇小说新人奖。
热门推荐
  • 网游之时光机

    网游之时光机

    我一度天真地以为自己是个称职的姐姐,讨喜的红娘,伟大的细作,谁想到头来,在人为刀俎的那一刻,我只不过是条睡在砧板上的咸鱼!...
  • 吞天至尊

    吞天至尊

    红尘如炼狱,众生皆蝼蚁。就算是蝼蚁,也敢把天吞
  • 废材小姐狂天下

    废材小姐狂天下

    自古以来,强者至尊。废材小姐个个奇遇。魔兽,圣兽,自愿跟随。炼药,炼器。无所不能。救父母,报旧仇。且看一介废材如何将这混乱的异界玩转于股掌之间。
  • 人生要走过的路

    人生要走过的路

    人生,是一次在时间隧道的旅行,是一次对空间之山的攀登。人生的 目标,是走向隧道前方的光亮,是走向空间山峰的那一片辉煌。人生的路 ,是行走过程中向上延伸的台阶,人的一生,就是要不断地踏上新台阶, 逐步进入更高的境界。 20几岁是人生的黄金岁月,也是人生梦想与失败挫折交织的变幻时期 。20几岁的你已经开始人生角色的转换,是获得经验和智慧的最佳时期。 从懵懂走向成熟的道路上,你需要选择正确的人生方向,掌握必备的人生 经验和智慧,这样才不会迷失前进的方向,遭遇失败的打击,被成功拒之 门外。 这是一本讲授人生经验和智慧的书,书中每一条人生经验和法则都有 强大的生命力。
  • 烟波明明

    烟波明明

    时间是不连续的。可曾想过,我们所见的明灭不过是大千世界变化的一小部分。若你我发现自己成为了故事的主角明明,不断以不同的时代中不同的身份重生,是否也能像他一样不变初心而豁达呢?
  • 扶摇直上

    扶摇直上

    偶然的受伤,使刚入社会的他拥有了制造幻觉的能力,本来只想平淡过一生,却因此陷入一场又一场的风暴漩涡之中。官场、职场、情场,且看他如何一路扶摇直上?
  • 逆天夜帝

    逆天夜帝

    遗忘者,亦或是被遗忘者无辜者,亦或是始作俑者这都不重要,重要的是卫帆来了!黑暗,迎来了他们的主宰!光明,迎来了他们的希望!【新建书友交流群:151138734欢迎各种宅男萌妹大叔腐女火星人强势入驻】
  • 常见病拨罐疗法

    常见病拨罐疗法

    本书分别介绍了拔罐疗法的原理,人体经络的作用,拔罐疗法常用的穴位,拔罐疗法的分类,96种常见病的拔罐方法。
  • 王子与贫儿

    王子与贫儿

    本书是美国作家马克·吐温的代表作。它描写王子爱德华和贫儿汤姆通过一个阴差阳错的偶在机会互相换了位置,王子变成了贫儿,贫儿成了王子。贫儿汤姆穿着王子的衣服在王宫里尽享荣华富贵,还当上了英国的新国王。而真正的王子爱德华却在外四处流浪,不得不忍受贫穷和乞丐们的欺凌和嘲讽。在好人霍顿的帮助下,爱德华王子经历了重重劫难,改正了自己的坏习惯,最后终于回到了王宫。而贫儿汤姆在良心的谴责下,将不属于自己的王位还给了真正的王子。此后,爱德华成了一位仁慈的君主,和他的子民一起过着幸福的生活。故事的想像极其丰富、语言幽默风趣,在带给儿童快乐的同时,能极大地激发儿童的想像力和对纯洁、善良、美好事物的向往。
  • 残王不爱:请出局

    残王不爱:请出局

    她被自己爱了两年的心上人指给一个残王,两年的约定,再次相见却让她心灰意冷,她要知道真相,她不相信那个让她爱了两年的男人不爱她了。她不爱眼前这个男人,眼前这个男人也不爱她。她处处和他作对,唯一的目的就是寻求一死,可他却偏偏不让她死。她意外有了野男人的孩子,他折磨她,想让她把孩子流掉,可是倔强的她却坚持要生下这个孩子,而这个孩子是……可是,到最后,她却爱上了另外一个男人,是命运的安排,还是本该如此。