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第9章

'Money!'he said.'Money is a sort of instinct.It's a sort of property of nature in a man to make money.It's nothing you do.It's no trick you play.It's a sort of permanent accident of your own nature;once you start,you make money,and you go on;up to a point,I suppose.'

'But you've got to begin,'said Clifford.

'Oh,quite!You've got to get in .You can do nothing if you are kept outside.You've got to beat your way in.Once you've done that,you can't help it.'

'But could you have made money except by plays?'asked Clifford.

'Oh,probably not!I may be a good writer or I may be a bad one,but a writer and a writer of plays is what I am,and I've got to be.There's no question of that.'

'And you think it's a writer of popular plays that you've got to be?'asked Connie.

'There,exactly!'he said,turning to her in a sudden flash.'There's nothing in it!There's nothing in popularity.There's nothing in the public,if it comes to that.There's nothing really in my plays to make them popular.

It's not that.They just are like the weather...the sort that will have to be...for the time being.'

He turned his slow,rather full eyes,that had been drowned in such fathomless disillusion,on Connie,and she trembled a little.He seemed so old...endlessly old,built up of layers of disillusion,going down in him generation after generation,like geological strata;and at the same time he was forlorn like a child.An outcast,in a certain sense;but with the desperate bravery of his rat-like existence.

'At least it's wonderful what you've done at your time of life,'said Clifford contemplatively.

'I'm thirty...yes,I'm thirty!'said Michaelis,sharply and suddenly,with a curious laugh;hollow,triumphant,and bitter.

'And are you alone?'asked Connie.

'How do you mean?Do I live alone?I've got my servant.He's a Greek,so he says,and quite incompetent.But I keep him.And I'm going to marry.

Oh,yes,I must marry.'

'It sounds like going to have your tonsils cut,'laughed Connie.'Will it be an effort?'

He looked at her admiringly.'Well,Lady Chatterley,somehow it will!

I find...excuse me...I find I can't marry an Englishwoman,not even an Irishwoman...'

'Try an American,'said Clifford.

'Oh,American!'He laughed a hollow laugh.'No,I've asked my man if he will find me a Turk or something...something nearer to the Oriental.'

Connie really wondered at this queer,melancholy specimen of extraordinary success;it was said he had an income of fifty thousand dollars from America alone.Sometimes he was handsome:sometimes as he looked sideways,downwards,and the light fell on him,he had the silent,enduring beauty of a carved ivory Negro mask,with his rather full eyes,and the strong queerly-arched brows,the immobile,compressed mouth;that momentary but revealed immobility,an immobility,a timelessness which the Buddha aims at,and which Negroes express sometimes without ever aiming at it;something old,old,and acquiescent in the race!Aeons of acquiescence in race destiny,instead of our individual resistance.And then a swimming through,like rats in a dark river.Connie felt a sudden,strange leap of sympathy for him,a leap mingled with compassion,and tinged with repulsion,amounting almost to love.The outsider!The outsider!And they called him a bounder!How much more bounderish and assertive Clifford looked!How much stupider!

Michaelis knew at once he had made an impression on her.He turned his full,hazel,slightly prominent eyes on her in a look of pure detachment.

He was estimating her,and the extent of the impression he had made.With the English nothing could save him from being the eternal outsider,not even love.Yet women sometimes fell for him...Englishwomen too.

He knew just where he was with Clifford.They were two alien dogs which would have liked to snarl at one another,but which smiled instead,perforce.

But with the woman he was not quite so sure.

Breakfast was served in the bedrooms;Clifford never appeared before lunch,and the dining-room was a little dreary.After coffee Michaelis,restless and ill-sitting soul,wondered what he should do.It was a fine November...day fine for Wragby.He looked over the melancholy park.My God!What a place!

He sent a servant to ask,could he be of any service to Lady Chatterley:he thought of driving into Sheffield.The answer came,would he care to go up to Lady Chatterley's sitting-room.

Connie had a sitting-room on the third floor,the top floor of the central portion of the house.Clifford's rooms were on the ground floor,of course.

Michaelis was flattered by being asked up to Lady Chatterley's own parlour.

He followed blindly after the servant...he never noticed things,or had contact with Isis surroundings.In her room he did glance vaguely round at the fine German reproductions of Renoir and Cézanne.

'It's very pleasant up here,'he said,with his queer smile,as if it hurt him to smile,showing his teeth.'You are wise to get up to the top.'

'Yes,I think so,'she said.

Her room was the only gay,modern one in the house,the only spot in Wragby where her personality was at all revealed.Clifford had never seen it,and she asked very few people up.

Now she and Michaelis sit on opposite sides of the fire and talked.

She asked him about himself,his mother and father,his brothers...other people were always something of a wonder to her,and when her sympathy was awakened she was quite devoid of class feeling.Michaelis talked frankly about himself,quite frankly,without affectation,simply revealing his bitter,indifferent,stray-dog's soul,then showing a gleam of revengeful pride in his success.

'But why are you such a lonely bird?'Connie asked him;and again he looked at her,with his full,searching,hazel look.

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