"Hm!yes.Go to Bun-Hin yourself and see the dollars of that payment counted and packed,and have them put on board the mail-boat for Ternate.She's due here this afternoon.""Yes,Mr.Hudig."
"And,look here.If the boat is late,leave the case in Bun-Hin's godown till to-morrow.Seal it up.Eight seals as usual.Don't take it away till the boat is here.""No,Mr.Hudig."
"And don't forget about these opium cases.It's for to-night.Use my own boatmen.Transship them from the Caroline to the Arab barque,"went on the master in his hoarse undertone."And don't you come to me with another story of a case dropped overboard like last time,"he added,with sudden ferocity,looking up at his confidential clerk.
"No,Mr.Hudig.I will take care."
"That's all.Tell that pig as you go out that if he doesn't make the punkah go a little better I will break every bone in his body,"finished up Hudig,wiping his purple face with a red silk handkerchief nearly as big as a counterpane.
Noiselessly Willems went out,shutting carefully behind him the little green door through which he passed to the warehouse.
Hudig,pen in hand,listened to him bullying the punkah boy with profane violence,born of unbounded zeal for the master's comfort,before he returned to his writing amid the rustling of papers fluttering in the wind sent down by the punkah that waved in wide sweeps above his head.
Willems would nod familiarly to Mr.Vinck,who had his desk close to the little door of the private office,and march down the warehouse with an important air.Mr.Vinck--extreme dislike lurking in every wrinkle of his gentlemanly countenance--would follow with his eyes the white figure flitting in the gloom amongst the piles of bales and cases till it passed out through the big archway into the glare of the street.
CHAPTER THREE
The opportunity and the temptation were too much for Willems,and under the pressure of sudden necessity he abused that trust which was his pride,the perpetual sign of his cleverness and a load too heavy for him to carry.A run of bad luck at cards,the failure of a small speculation undertaken on his own account,an unexpected demand for money from one or another member of the Da Souza family--and almost before he was well aware of it he was off the path of his peculiar honesty.It was such a faint and ill-defined track that it took him some time to find out how far he had strayed amongst the brambles of the dangerous wilderness he had been skirting for so many years,without any other guide than his own convenience and that doctrine of success which he had found for himself in the book of life--in those interesting chapters that the Devil has been permitted to write in it,to test the sharpness of men's eyesight and the steadfastness of their hearts.For one short,dark and solitary moment he was dismayed,but he had that courage that will not scale heights,yet will wade bravely through the mud--if there be no other road.
He applied himself to the task of restitution,and devoted himself to the duty of not being found out.On his thirtieth birthday he had almost accomplished the task--and the duty had been faithfully and cleverly performed.He saw himself safe.
Again he could look hopefully towards the goal of his legitimate ambition.Nobody would dare to suspect him,and in a few days there would be nothing to suspect.He was elated.He did not know that his prosperity had touched then its high-water mark,and that the tide was already on the turn.
Two days afterwards he knew.Mr.Vinck,hearing the rattle of the door-handle,jumped up from his desk--where he had been tremulously listening to the loud voices in the private office--and buried his face in the big safe with nervous haste.
For the last time Willems passed through the little green door leading to Hudig's sanctum,which,during the past half-hour,might have been taken--from the fiendish noise within--for the cavern of some wild beast.Willems'troubled eyes took in the quick impression of men and things as he came out from the place of his humiliation.He saw the scared expression of the punkah boy;the Chinamen tellers sitting on their heels with unmovable faces turned up blankly towards him while their arrested hands hovered over the little piles of bright guilders ranged on the floor;Mr.Vinck's shoulder-blades with the fleshy rims of two red ears above.He saw the long avenue of gin cases stretching from where he stood to the arched doorway beyond which he would be able to breathe perhaps.A thin rope's end lay across his path and he saw it distinctly,yet stumbled heavily over it as if it had been a bar of iron.Then he found himself in the street at last,but could not find air enough to fill his lungs.He walked towards his home,gasping.
As the sound of Hudig's insults that lingered in his ears grew fainter by the lapse of time,the feeling of shame was replaced slowly by a passion of anger against himself and still more against the stupid concourse of circumstances that had driven him into his idiotic indiscretion.Idiotic indiscretion;that is how he defined his guilt to himself.Could there be anything worse from the point of view of his undeniable cleverness?What a fatal aberration of an acute mind!He did not recognize himself there.He must have been mad.That's it.A sudden gust of madness.And now the work of long years was destroyed utterly.
What would become of him?
Before he could answer that question he found himself in the garden before his house,Hudig's wedding gift.He looked at it with a vague surprise to find it there.His past was so utterly gone from him that the dwelling which belonged to it appeared to him incongruous standing there intact,neat,and cheerful in the sunshine of the hot afternoon.The house was a pretty little structure all doors and windows,surrounded on all sides by the deep verandah supported on slender columns clothed in the green foliage of creepers,which also fringed the overhanging eaves of the high-pitched roof.Slowly,Willems mounted the dozen steps that led to the verandah.He paused at every step.He must tell his wife.He felt frightened at the prospect,and his alarm dismayed him.Frightened to face her!Nothing could give him a better measure of the greatness of the change around him,and in him.Another man--and another life with the faith in himself gone.He could not be worth much if he was afraid to face that woman.
He dared not enter the house through the open door of the dining-room,but stood irresolute by the little work-table where trailed a white piece of calico,with a needle stuck in it,as if the work had been left hurriedly.The pink-crested cockatoo started,on his appearance,into clumsy activity and began to climb laboriously up and down his perch,calling "Joanna"with indistinct loudness and a persistent screech that prolonged the last syllable of the name as if in a peal of insane laughter.
The screen in the doorway moved gently once or twice in the breeze,and each time Willems started slightly,expecting his wife,but he never lifted his eyes,although straining his ears for the sound of her footsteps.Gradually he lost himself in his thoughts,in the endless speculation as to the manner in which she would receive his news--and his orders.In this preoccupationhe almost forgot the fear of her presence.No doubt she will cry,she will lament,she will be helpless and frightened and passive as ever.And he would have to drag that limp weight on and on through the darkness of a spoiled life.
Horrible!Of course he could not abandon her and the child to certain misery or possible starvation.The wife and the child of Willems.Willems the successful,the smart;Willems the conf...Pah!And what was Willems now?Willems the...He strangled the half-born thought,and cleared his throat to stifle a groan.Ah!Won't they talk to-night in the billiard-room--his world,where he had been first--all those men to whom he had been so superciliously condescending.Won't they talk with surprise,and affected regret,and grave faces,and wise nods.Some of them owed him money,but he never pressed anybody.Not he.
Willems,the prince of good fellows,they called him.And now they will rejoice,no doubt,at his downfall.A crowd of imbeciles.In his abasement he was yet aware of his superiority over those fellows,who were merely honest or simply not found out yet.A crowd of imbeciles!He shook his fist at the evoked image of his friends,and the startled parrot fluttered its wings and shrieked in desperate fright.
In a short glance upwards Willems saw his wife come round the corner of the house.He lowered his eyelids quickly,and waited silently till she came near and stood on the other side of the little table.He would not look at her face,but he could see the red dressing-gown he knew so well.She trailed through life in that red dressing-gown,with its row of dirty blue bows down the front,stained,and hooked on awry;a torn flounce at the bottom following her like a snake as she moved languidly about,with her hair negligently caught up,and a tangled wisp straggling untidily down her back.His gaze travelled upwards from bow to bow,noticing those that hung only by a thread,but it did not go beyond her chin.He looked at her lean throat,at the obtrusive collarbone visible in the disarray of the upper part of her attire.He saw the thin arm and the bony hand clasping the child she carried,and he felt an immense distaste for those encumbrances of his life.He waited for her to say something,but as he felt her eyes rest on him in unbroken silence he sighed and began to speak.
It was a hard task.He spoke slowly,lingering amongst the memories of this early life in his reluctance to confess that this was the end of it and the beginning of a less splendid existence.In his conviction of having made her happiness in the full satisfaction of all material wants he never doubted for a moment that she was ready to keep him company on no matter how hard and stony a road.He was not elated by this certitude.He had married her to please Hudig,and the greatness of his sacrifice ought to have made her happy without any further exertion on his part.She had years of glory as Willems'wife,and years of comfort,of loyal care,and of such tenderness as she deserved.He had guarded her carefully from any bodily hurt;and of any other suffering he had no conception.The assertion of his superiority was only another benefit conferred on her.
All this was a matter of course,but he told her all this so as to bring vividly before her the greatness of her loss.She was so dull of understanding that she would not grasp it else.And now it was at an end.They would have to go.Leave this house,leave this island,go far away where he was unknown.To the English Strait-Settlements perhaps.He would find an opening there for his abilities--and juster men to deal with than old Hudig.He laughed bitterly.
"You have the money I left at home this morning,Joanna?"he asked."We will want it all now."As he spoke those words he thought he was a fine fellow.Nothing new that.Still,he surpassed there his own expectations.Hang it all,there are sacred things in life,after all.The marriage tie was one of them,and he was not the man to break it.The solidity of his principles caused him great satisfaction,but he did not care to look at his wife,for all that.He waited for her to speak.Then he would have to console her;tell her not to be a crying fool;to get ready to go.Go where?How?When?He shook his head.They must leave at once;that was the principal thing.He felt a sudden need to hurry up his departure.
"Well,Joanna,"he said,a little impatiently---"don't stand there in a trance.Do you hear?We must..."He looked up at his wife,and whatever he was going to add remained unspoken.She was staring at him with her big,slanting eyes,that seemed to him twice their natural size.The child,its dirty little face pressed to its mother's shoulder,was sleeping peacefully.The deep silence of the house was not broken,but rather accentuated,by the low mutter of the cockatoo,now very still on its perch.As Willems was looking at Joanna her upper lip was drawn up on one side,giving to her melancholy face a vicious expression altogether new to his experience.He stepped back in his surprise.
"Oh!You great man!"she said distinctly,but in a voice that was hardly above a whisper.
Those words,and still more her tone,stunned him as if somebody had fired a gun close to his ear.He stared back at her stupidly.
"Oh!you great man!"she repeated slowly,glancing right and left as if meditating a sudden escape."And you think that I am going to starve with you.You are nobody now.You think my mamma and Leonard would let me go away?And with you!With you,"she repeated scornfully,raising her voice,which woke up the child and caused it to whimper feebly.
"Joanna!"exclaimed Willems.
"Do not speak to me.I have heard what I have waited for all these years.You are less than dirt,you that have wiped your feet on me.I have waited for this.I am not afraid now.I do not want you;do not come near me.Ah-h!"she screamed shrilly,as he held out his hand in an entreating gesture--"Ah!Keep off me!Keep off me!Keep off!"She backed away,looking at him with eyes both angry and frightened.Willems stared motionless,in dumb amazement at the mystery of anger and revolt in the head of his wife.Why?What had he ever done to her?This was the day of injustice indeed.
First Hudig--and now his wife.He felt a terror at this hate that had lived stealthily so near him for years.He tried to speak,but she shrieked again,and it was like a needle through his heart.Again he raised his hand.
"Help!"called Mrs.Willems,in a piercing voice."Help!""Be quiet!You fool!"shouted Willems,trying to drown the noise of his wife and child in his own angry accents and rattling violently the little zinc table in his exasperation.
From under the house,where there were bathrooms and a tool closet,appeared Leonard,a rusty iron bar in his hand.He called threateningly from the bottom of the stairs.
"Do not hurt her,Mr.Willems.You are a savage.Not at all like we,whites.""You too!"said the bewildered Willems."I haven't touched her.
Is this a madhouse?"He moved towards the stairs,and Leonard dropped the bar with a clang and made for the gate of the compound.Willems turned back to his wife.
"So you expected this,"he said."It is a conspiracy.Who's that sobbing and groaning in the room?Some more of your precious family.Hey?"She was more calm now,and putting hastily the crying child in the big chair walked towards him with sudden fearlessness.
"My mother,"she said,"my mother who came to defend me from you--man from nowhere;a vagabond!""You did not call me a vagabond when you hung round my neck--before we were married,"said Willems,contemptuously.
"You took good care that I should not hang round your neck after we were,"she answered,clenching her hands,and putting her face close to his."You boasted while I suffered and said nothing.What has become of your greatness;of our greatness--you were always speaking about?Now I am going to live on the charity of your master.Yes.That is true.He sent Leonard to tell me so.And you will go and boast somewhere else,and starve.So!Ah!I can breathe now!This house is mine."
"Enough!"said Willems,slowly,with an arresting gesture.
She leaped back,the fright again in her eyes,snatched up the child,pressed it to her breast,and,falling into a chair,drummed insanely with her heels on the resounding floor of the verandah.
"I shall go,"said Willems,steadily."I thank you.For the first time in your life you make me happy.You were a stone round my neck;you understand.I did not mean to tell you that as long as you lived,but you made me--now.Before I pass this gate you shall be gone from my mind.You made it very easy.Ithank you."
He turned and went down the steps without giving her a glance,while she sat upright and quiet,with wide-open eyes,the child crying querulously in her arms.At the gate he came suddenly upon Leonard,who had been dodging about there and failed to get out of the way in time.
"Do not be brutal,Mr.Willems,"said Leonard,hurriedly."It is unbecoming between white men with all those natives looking on."Leonard's legs trembled very much,and his voice wavered between high and low tones without any attempt at control on his part.
"Restrain your improper violence,"he went on mumbling rapidly.
"I am a respectable man of very good family,while you...it is regrettable...they all say so...""What?"thundered Willems.He felt a sudden impulse of mad anger,and before he knew what had happened he was looking at Leonard da Souza rolling in the dust at his feet.He stepped over his prostrate brother-in-law and tore blindly down the street,everybody making way for the frantic white man.
When he came to himself he was beyond the outskirts of the town,stumbling on the hard and cracked earth of reaped rice fields.
How did he get there?It was dark.He must get back.As he walked towards the town slowly,his mind reviewed the events of the day and he felt a sense of bitter loneliness.His wife had turned him out of his own house.He had assaulted brutally his brother-in-law,a member of the Da Souza family--of that band of his worshippers.He did.Well,no!It was some other man.
Another man was coming back.A man without a past,without a future,yet full of pain and shame and anger.He stopped and looked round.A dog or two glided across the empty street and rushed past him with a frightened snarl.He was now in the midst of the Malay quarter whose bamboo houses,hidden in the verdure of their little gardens,were dark and silent.Men,women and children slept in there.Human beings.Would he ever sleep,and where?He felt as if he was the outcast of all mankind,and as he looked hopelessly round,before resuming his weary march,it seemed to him that the world was bigger,the night more vast and more black;but he went on doggedly with his head down as if pushing his way through some thick brambles.Then suddenly he felt planks under his feet and,looking up,saw the red light at the end of the jetty.He walked quite to the end and stood leaning against the post,under the lamp,looking at the roadstead where two vessels at anchor swayed their slender rigging amongst the stars.The end of the jetty;and here in one step more the end of life;the end of everything.Better so.
What else could he do?Nothing ever comes back.He saw it clearly.The respect and admiration of them all,the old habits and old affections finished abruptly in the clear perception of the cause of his disgrace.He saw all this;and for a time he came out of himself,out of his selfishness--out of the constant preoccupation of his interests and his desires--out of the temple of self and the concentration of personal thought.
His thoughts now wandered home.Standing in the tepid stillness of a starry tropical night he felt the breath of the bitter east wind,he saw the high and narrow fronts of tall houses under the gloom of a clouded sky;and on muddy quays he saw the shabby,high-shouldered figure--the patient,faded face of the weary man earning bread for the children that waited for him in a dingy home.It was miserable,miserable.But it would never come back.What was there in common between those things and Willems the clever,Willems the successful.He had cut himself adrift from that home many years ago.Better for him then.Better for them now.All this was gone,never to come back again;and suddenly he shivered,seeing himself alone in the presence of unknown and terrible dangers.
For the first time in his life he felt afraid of the future,because he had lost his faith,the faith in his own success.And he had destroyed it foolishly with his own hands!
CHAPTER FOUR
His meditation which resembled slow drifting into suicide was interrupted by Lingard,who,with a loud "I've got you at last!"dropped his hand heavily on Willems'shoulder.This time it was the old seaman himself going out of his way to pick up the uninteresting waif--all that there was left of that sudden and sordid shipwreck.To Willems,the rough,friendly voice was a quick and fleeting relief followed by a sharper pang of anger and unavailing regret.That voice carried him back to the beginning of his promising career,the end of which was very visible now from the jetty where they both stood.He shook himself free from the friendly grasp,saying with ready bitterness--"It's all your fault.Give me a push now,do,and send me over.
I have been standing here waiting for help.You are the man--of all men.You helped at the beginning;you ought to have a hand in the end.""I have better use for you than to throw you to the fishes,"said Lingard,seriously,taking Willems by the arm and forcing him gently to walk up the jetty."I have been buzzing over this town like a bluebottle fly,looking for you high and low.I have heard a lot.I will tell you what,Willems;you are no saint,that's a fact.And you have not been over-wise either.I am not throwing stones,"he added,hastily,as Willems made an effort to get away,"but I am not going to mince matters.Never could!
You keep quiet while I talk.Can't you?"With a gesture of resignation and a half-stifled groan Willems submitted to the stronger will,and the two men paced slowly up and down the resounding planks,while Lingard disclosed to Willems the exact manner of his undoing.After the first shock Willems lost the faculty of surprise in the over-powering feeling of indignation.So it was Vinck and Leonard who had served him so.They had watched him,tracked his misdeeds,reported them to Hudig.They had bribed obscure Chinamen,wormed out confidences from tipsy skippers,got at various boatmen,and had pieced out in that way the story of his irregularities.The blackness of this dark intrigue filled him with horror.He could understand Vinck.There was no love lost between them.But Leonard!
Leonard!
"Why,Captain Lingard,"he burst out,"the fellow licked my boots.""Yes,yes,yes,"said Lingard,testily,"we know that,and you did your best to cram your boot down his throat.No man likes that,my boy.""I was always giving money to all that hungry lot,"went on Willems,passionately."Always my hand in my pocket.They never had to ask twice.""Just so.Your generosity frightened them.They asked themselves where all that came from,and concluded that it was safer to throw you overboard.After all,Hudig is a much greater man than you,my friend,and they have a claim on him also.""What do you mean,Captain Lingard?"
"What do I mean?"repeated Lingard,slowly."Why,you are not going to make me believe you did not know your wife was Hudig's daughter.Come now!"Willems stopped suddenly and swayed about.
"Ah!I understand,"he gasped."I never heard...Lately Ithought there was...But no,I never guessed.""Oh,you simpleton!"said Lingard,pityingly."'Pon my word,"he muttered to himself,"I don't believe the fellow knew.Well!well!Steady now.Pull yourself together.What's wrong there.She is a good wife to you."
"Excellent wife,"said Willems,in a dreary voice,looking far over the black and scintillating water.
"Very well then,"went on Lingard,with increasing friendliness.
"Nothing wrong there.But did you really think that Hudig was marrying you off and giving you a house and I don't know what,out of love for you?""I had served him well,"answered Willems."How well,you know yourself--through thick and thin.No matter what work and what risk,I was always there;always ready."How well he saw the greatness of his work and the immensity of that injustice which was his reward.She was that man's daughter!
