登陆注册
19865000000069

第69章 THE AGONY(7)

These two people looked like two estranged lovers still sulking, still turning their backs upon each other, who will go into each other's arms at the first tender word.

Now and again his neighbor's ostrich feathers or her hair came in contact with Raphael's head, giving him a pleasurable thrill, against which he sternly fought. In a little while he felt the touch of the soft frill of lace that went round her dress; he could hear the gracious sounds of the folds of her dress itself, light rustling noises full of enchantment; he could even feel her movements as she breathed; with the gentle stir thus imparted to her form and to her draperies, it seemed to Raphael that all her being was suddenly communicated to him in an electric spark. The lace and tulle that caressed him imparted the delicious warmth of her bare, white shoulders. By a freak in the ordering of things, these two creatures, kept apart by social conventions, with the abysses of death between them, breathed together and perhaps thought of one another. Finally, the subtle perfume of aloes completed the work of Raphael's intoxication. Opposition heated his imagination, and his fancy, become the wilder for the limits imposed upon it, sketched a woman for him in outlines of fire. He turned abruptly, the stranger made a similar movement, startled no doubt at being brought in contact with a stranger; and they remained face to face, each with the same thought.

"Pauline!"

"M. Raphael!"

Each surveyed the other, both of them petrified with astonishment.

Raphael noticed Pauline's daintily simple costume. A woman's experienced eyes would have discerned and admired the outlines beneath the modest gauze folds of her bodice and the lily whiteness of her throat. And then her more than mortal clearness of soul, her maidenly modesty, her graceful bearing, all were unchanged. Her sleeve was quivering with agitation, for the beating of her heart was shaking her whole frame.

"Come to the Hotel de Saint-Quentin to-morrow for your papers," she said. "I will be there at noon. Be punctual."She rose hastily, and disappeared. Raphael thought of following Pauline, feared to compromise her, and stayed. He looked at Foedora;she seemed to him positively ugly. Unable to understand a single phrase of the music, and feeling stifled in the theatre, he went out, and returned home with a full heart.

"Jonathan," he said to the old servant, as soon as he lay in bed, "give me half a drop of laudanum on a piece of sugar, and don't wake me to-morrow till twenty minutes to twelve.""I want Pauline to love me!" he cried next morning, looking at the talisman the while in unspeakable anguish.

The skin did not move in the least; it seemed to have lost its power to shrink; doubtless it could not fulfil a wish fulfilled already.

"Ah!" exclaimed Raphael, feeling as if a mantle of lead had fallen away, which he had worn ever since the day when the talisman had been given to him; "so you are playing me false, you are not obeying me, the pact is broken! I am free; I shall live. Then was it all a wretched joke?" But he did not dare to believe in his own thought as he uttered it.

He dressed himself as simply as had formerly been his wont, and set out on foot for his old lodging, trying to go back in fancy to the happy days when he abandoned himself without peril to vehement desires, the days when he had not yet condemned all human enjoyment.

As he walked he beheld Pauline--not the Pauline of the Hotel Saint-Quentin, but the Pauline of last evening. Here was the accomplished mistress he had so often dreamed of, the intelligent young girl with the loving nature and artistic temperament, who understood poets, who understood poetry, and lived in luxurious surroundings. Here, in short, was Foedora, gifted with a great soul; or Pauline become a countess, and twice a millionaire, as Foedora had been. When he reached the worn threshold, and stood upon the broken step at the door, where in the old days he had had so many desperate thoughts, an old woman came out of the room within and spoke to him.

"You are M. Raphael de Valentin, are you not?""Yes, good mother," he replied.

"You know your old room then," she replied; "you are expected up there.""Does Mme. Gaudin still own the house?" Raphael asked.

"Oh no, sir. Mme. Gaudin is a baroness now. She lives in a fine house of her own on the other side of the river. Her husband has come back.

My goodness, he brought back thousands and thousands. They say she could buy up all the Quartier Saint-Jacques if she liked. She gave me her basement room for nothing, and the remainder of her lease. Ah, she's a kind woman all the same; she is no more proud to-day than she was yesterday."Raphael hurried up the staircase to his garret; as he reached the last few steps he heard the sounds of a piano. Pauline was there, simply dressed in a cotton gown, but the way that it was made, like the gloves, hat, and shawl that she had thrown carelessly upon the bed, revealed a change of fortune.

"Ah, there you are!" cried Pauline, turning her head, and rising with unconcealed delight.

Raphael went to sit beside her, flushed, confused, and happy; he looked at her in silence.

"Why did you leave us then?" she asked, dropping her eyes as the flush deepened on his face. "What became of you?""Ah, I have been very miserable, Pauline; I am very miserable still.""Alas!" she said, filled with pitying tenderness. "I guessed your fate yesterday when I saw you so well dressed, and apparently so wealthy;but in reality? Eh, M. Raphael, is it as it always used to be with you?"Valentin could not restrain the tears that sprang to his eyes.

"Pauline," he exclaimed, "I----"

He went no further, love sparkled in his eyes, and his emotion overflowed his face.

"Oh, he loves me! he loves me!" cried Pauline.

同类推荐
  • 佛说圣佛母般若波罗蜜多经

    佛说圣佛母般若波罗蜜多经

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。
  • 西方愿文解

    西方愿文解

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 士昏礼

    士昏礼

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 清实录雍正朝实录

    清实录雍正朝实录

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。
  • 文房四说

    文房四说

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
热门推荐
  • 我是复仇者

    我是复仇者

    我只是平凡人,是命运的安排让我成为了复仇者。本以为,我的复仇早已结束,我所剩下的是帮助老师的复仇可是,命运再次跟我开了一个玩笑我的复仇远远没有结束—————————————————————————————————————————————————新手写书,文笔较烂。如若不喜,右角点×。不过我还是希望你们能多多支持,谢谢了。
  • 千王反赌生涯

    千王反赌生涯

    老千这两个字让普通人感觉很神秘,也有通过电影《赌神》大家也熟悉了不少。可有多少人见过真正的老千呢?那只有输得倾家荡产和被平白无故陷入赌局的人,才会见到真正的老千。千的出现让赌局不在公平,圈套的出现会让赌徒陷入无法自拔,这本作品揭秘了所有的老千在赌局中所用手段,千术虽种类繁多,但归根结底:做牌、发牌、记牌、认牌、偷牌、算牌、换牌、高科技运用等等。最真实的老千经历,让千术走向透明化,让千无处可藏,最详细的揭秘,让赌徒们都能知道千的危害,让你真正能看到、了解现实生活中的老千。
  • 皇帝那些事:沉重的逍遥

    皇帝那些事:沉重的逍遥

    本书选取中国历史上的15位皇帝的生活中的嗜好为考察对象,以文学家独特的视角和细腻的笔触,解读中国历史上那一群独特的人的另一面。
  • 红颜乱世:异族公主倾天下

    红颜乱世:异族公主倾天下

    南海之外,有鲛人,水居如鱼,不废织绩,其眼泣,则能出珠……三年里,她嫁过两次人!欢天喜地第一嫁,惊慌落跑!阴差阳错第二嫁,利剑穿胸!前皇后妒恨咬不放,野皇兄弑父夺江山。烂桃花源源不绝甩不掉,盼良人有苦难言只能逃。一颗初心,善待天下。拖着一条鲛尾,她且伤且退。当退无可退时,她开始绽放倾世芳华!而他,一路相伴,无意为王,只为一个她,遥居深阁却挥手沉浮天下。浪逐白沙滩,她用力将半片竹节扔进海里:“我记你一路相随的好,也记你剥鳞取脂的痛。再让我嫁?把东西找回来再说吧!”
  • 学渣的世界

    学渣的世界

    在这个学霸至上,急速急利的世界,作为一枚学渣要如何自处?《学渣的世界》让你以学渣的角度去看这个永远也不曾停滞的纷繁时代!!!
  • 医凰闹翻天

    医凰闹翻天

    给我一点阳光,我能灿烂一片,绑定一个空藏舱,我能给世界换一个天!右手握住手术刀,左手握住高科技,披荆斩棘,退婚太子,重振侯府,携手有情郎,人挡杀人,神挡杀神!金子是我的,家是我的,国是我的,你是我的,我的还是我的!
  • 又示宗武

    又示宗武

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 无尽剑魂

    无尽剑魂

    剑灵大陆流传着一个传说,天地间有十柄神剑,代表了十种极致传承,只要得到其中的任何一柄,都可以成为站在整个宇宙巅峰的人。奈何从古至今都没有一个人真正成功过,直到有一天,一个少年聚集了十柄神剑……
  • 穿越奇缘之我是大明星

    穿越奇缘之我是大明星

    古代某村花林若逃婚摔下山崖,可等她睁开眼便是天翻地覆。姑娘你为何穿衣如此之少?公子男女授受不亲你戴了个什么东西?更荒诞的有人找她做明星!且看小村姑如何变身为大明星玩转娱乐圈!
  • 青春恋曲之痴情无悔

    青春恋曲之痴情无悔

    我们一生要走过很多路,遇见很多人,做过很多事,经历至真的爱情。生命的过程,是一个不继经历的过程。所以在我们的前面有无数的困难和我们不能承受的情感、意想不到的事情与人生之种种。但当你回头时那已成为云烟,成为最值得珍藏的回忆。因为能让我们得以欣慰的是,我们曾经努力过,用心的体会过,努力的爱过。