And as we went we became sensible of a wild and splendid exhilaration, of a glorious sense of such a fierce intensity of Life that the most buoyant moments of our strength seemed flat and tame and feeble beside it.It was the mere effluvium of the flame, the subtle ether that it cast off as it passed, working on us, and making us feel strong as giants and swift as eagles.We reached the head of the cave, and gazed at each other in the glorious glow, and laughed aloudeven Job laughed, and he had not laughed for a weekin the lightness of our hearts and the divine intoxication of our brains.I know that I felt as though all the varied genius of which the human intellect is capable had descended upon me.I could have spoken in blank verse of Shakespearian beauty, all sorts of great ideas flashed through my mind; it was as though the bonds of my flesh had been loosened, and left the spirit free to soar to the empyrean of its native power.The sensations that poured in upon me are indescribable.I seemed to live more keenly, to reach to a higher joy, and sip the goblet of a subtler thought than ever it had been my lot to do before.Iwas another and most glorified self, and all the avenues of the Possible were for a space laid open to the footsteps of the Real.Then, suddenly, while Irejoiced in this splendid vigor of a new-found self, from far, far away there came a dreadful muttering noise, that grew and grew to a crash and a roar, which combined in itself all that is terrible and yet splendid in the possibilities of sound.Nearer it came, and nearer yet, till it was close upon us, rolling down like all the thunder-wheels of heaven behind the horses of the lightning.On it came, and with it came the glorious blinding cloud of many-colored light, and stood before us for a space, turning, as it seemed to us, slowly round and round, and then, accompanied by its attendant pomp of sound, passed away I know not whither.
So astonishing was the wondrous sight that one and all of us, save _i_ She _i_ , who stood up and stretched her hands towards the fire, sank down before it, and hid our faces in the sand.
When it was gone, Ayesha spoke."Now, Kallikrates,"she said, "the mighty moment is at hand.When the great flame comes again thou must stand in it.First throw aside thy garments, for it will burn them, though thee it will not hurt.Thou must stand in the flame while thy senses will endure, and when it embraces thee suck the fire down into thy very heart, and let it leap and play around thy every part, so that thou lose no moiety of its virtue.Hearest thou me, Kallikrates?""I hear thee, Ayesha," answered Leo, "but, of a truthI am no cowardbut I doubt me of that raging flame.
How know I that it will not utterly destroy me, so that I lose myself and lose thee also? Nevertheless will I do it," he added.
Ayesha thought for a minute, and then said, "It is not wonderful that thou shouldst doubt.Tell me, Kallikrates, if thou seest me stand in the flame and come forth unharmed, wilt thou enter also?'
"Yes," he answered, "I will enter, even if it slay me.
I have said that I will enter now."
"And that will I also," I cried.
"What, my Holly!" she laughed aloud; "methought that thou wouldst naught of length of days.Why, how is this?""Nay, I know not," I answered, "but there is that in my heart that calleth to me to taste of the flame, and live.""It is well," she said."Thou art not altogether lost in folly.See now; I will for the second time bathe me in this living bath.Fain would I add to my beauty and my length of days if that be possible.If it be not possible, at the least it cannot harm me.
"Also," she continued, after a momentary pause, "is there another and a deeper cause why I would once again dip me in the flame.When first I tasted of its virtue full was my heart of passion and of hatred of that Egyptian Amenartas, and therefore, despite my strivings to be rid thereof, have passion and hatred been stamped upon my soul from that sad hour to this.
But now it is otherwise.Now is my mood a happy mood, and filled am I with the purest part of thought, and so would I ever be.Therefore, Kallikrates, will Ionce more wash and make me pure and clean, and yet more fit for thee.Therefore also, when thou dost in turn stand in the fire, empty all thy heart of evil, and let sweet contentment hold the balance of thy mind.Shake loose thy spirit's wings, and take thy stand upon the utter verge of holy contemplation; ay, dream upon thy mother's kiss, and turn thee towards the vision of the highest good that hath ever swept on silver wings across the silence of thy dreams.For from the germ of what thou art in that dread moment shall grow the fruit of what thou shalt be for all unreckoned time.
"Now prepare thee, prepare! even as though thy last hour were at hand, and thou wast about to cross to the land of shadows, and not through the gates of glory into the realms of Life made beautiful.Prepare, I say!"
