登陆注册
19847300000080

第80章

"No, you must listen to me. Sit down." Barney obeyed her word and sat down. "Now, hear me, and hear me fairly. I am not going to say that Dick was free from blame, nor was Iola either. Whose was the greater I can't tell. They were both young and, to a certain extent, inexperienced in the ways of life. Circumstances threw them much together and on terms of almost brotherly and sisterly intimacy. That was a mistake. They ignored conventions that can never be safely ignored. Just at that time Dick's life was made hard for him. His Church had rejected him."

"Rejected him?"

"Yes, rejected him. He was refused license by the Presbytery, was branded as a heretic and outcast from work." Margaret's voice grew bitter. "Do you wonder that he grew hard? Perhaps they could not help it--I can't say--but he grew hard. Yes, and worse than that, grew away from his faith, from his friends, and from those things that keep men straight and strong. He grew weak. The hour of temptation came upon him. You and I have seen enough of that side of life to know what that means. He broke faith with you--no, not with you. He was loyal to you, but he broke faith with himself and with her. For a single moment, that moment at which you appeared, he yielded to passion, and bitterly, terribly, has he suffered since that moment. How terribly no one knows. He has tried to find you, but you would not be found. He wronged you, Barney, but you have made him and all of us suffer much." The voice that had gone on so bravely and so firmly here suddenly trembled and broke.

"Made you suffer!" cried Barney, with bitter scorn. "How can you speak of suffering? You have everything! I have lost all!"

"Everything?" echoed Margaret faintly. "Ah, Barney, how little you know! But, no matter, God has brought you together and you must not do this wicked thing. You must not continue to break our hearts."

"Break your hearts? Margaret, what's the use of words? I had a heart, too, and a brother whom I loved and trusted as myself, yes, more than myself, and--I had--Iola. All I have lost. My work satisfies me for a few months, but try as I can this awful thing hunts me down and drives me mad. There is nothing in life left for me. And there might have been much but for--"

"Stop, Barney!" cried Margaret impulsively. "There is much still left for you. God is good. How much better than we. You can't forgive a fellow-sinner. Oh, shame! But He forgives and forgets, and surely you ought to try--"

"Try! Try! Heavens above, Margaret! Try! Do you think I haven't tried? That thing is there! there!" smiting on his breast again.

"Can you tell me how to rid myself of it?"

"Yes, Barney, I think I can tell you. God's great goodness will do this for you. Listen," she said, putting up her hand to stay his words, "God is bringing a great joy to you to shame you and to soften you. Here, read this." She handed him Iola's letter, went to the window, and stood with her back to him, looking out upon the great sweeping valley below.

"Margaret!" The hoarse voice called her back to him. His hard, proud, sullen reserve was shattered, gone. His lips were quivering, his hands trembling. The girl was touched to the heart.

"Margaret," he cried brokenly, "what does this mean?" He was terribly shaken.

"It means that she wants you, that she needs you. Dick was going to-morrow to bring her back to you, Barney. That was his one desire."

"To bring her to me? To bring her back to me? Dick? Dear old boy! and I-- Oh, Margaret!" He put his trembling hands out to her. "Forgive me! God forgive me! Poor Dick! I'll see him!" He started toward the door. "No, not how," he cried, striving in vain to control himself. "I am mad! mad! For three long years I have carried this cursed thing in my heart! It's gone! It's gone, Margaret! Do you hear? It's gone!" He was shouting aloud. "I feel right toward Dick, my brother!"

"Hush, Barney dear," said the girl, tears running down her face, "you will wake him."

"Yes, yes," he cried, in an eager whisper, "I'll be careful. Poor old boy, he has suffered, too. Dear old Dick! And she wants me!

I'll go to-night! Yes, to-night! What's the date?" He tore at the envelope with trembling hands. The letter dropped to the floor. Margaret caught it up and opened it for him. "A month ago and more! Yes, I'll go to-night. Oh, Margaret, what a blasted fool I am! I can't get myself in hand." Suddenly he threw himself into his chair. "Here!" he ground out between his teeth, "get quiet!" He sat for a few moments absolutely still, gathering strength to command himself. At length he got himself in hand.

"No," he said in a quiet voice, "I shall not go tonight. I shall wait till Dick is better. Just now he must be kept quiet. In the morning I expect to see him very much himself. We can only wait and see."

Through the night they waited, Barney struggling mightily to hold himself in perfect control, Margaret quietly doing what was to be done, her whole spirit breathing of that self-forgetting love which finds its highest joy in the joy of another. At the break of day the nurse came to the door and found them still waiting.

"Mr. Boyle is awake and is asking for you, Miss Robertson."

"Let me go to him," cried Barney. "Don't fear." His voice was still vibrating, but his manner was calm and steady. He was master of himself again.

"Yes," said Margaret, "go to him." Then as the door closed she stood once more before the Gethsemane scene. "Thank God, thank God," she said softly, "for them the pain is over."

For half an hour she waited and then went up to the sickroom. She opened the door softly, went in and stood gazing till her eyes grew dim. On the pillow, face down, Barney's head lay close to Dick's, whose arm was thrown about his brother's neck, and on Dick's face shone a look of rapturous peace. As Margaret moved to leave the room Dick called her in a voice faint, but full of joy.

"Margaret," he said, a smile breaking like light through a dark cloud, "my head was broken, but I'd have all the bones in my body broken, just to have Barney set them. We're all right, eh, boy?"

Slowly Barney raised his face, tear-marked, worn, but radiant with a peace it had not known for many a day. "Yes, old chap," he said in a voice still tremulous in spite of all his self-command, "we're right again, and, please God, we'll keep so."

同类推荐
热门推荐
  • 修真高手战都市

    修真高手战都市

    一个傻子被一个疯子劫持了,接下来会发生什么?玄武大陆十阶大帝,飞升失败灵魂附在傻子易风身上。从此——这个傻子摆平胸大无脑的美女警花!搞定傲娇的大小姐未婚妻!迷住曾经暗恋的女神老师!
  • 蜜爱来袭:老公大人请小心

    蜜爱来袭:老公大人请小心

    南风语发誓,自己真的不记得是什么时候得罪了这个政商两界都叱咤风云的人物——公钰允。他说要报复自己,可是却从来都不说为什么,当她发现一不小心爱上了这个男人的时候,却被对方告知,原来她不过是他主动靠近想要得到的一枚棋子罢了。她想要得到他的爱,却换回来一具冰冷的身体,无奈,她逃开,再见面,他却告知她,南风语,我让你跑一次,绝对不会再跑第二次!
  • 仙二代俗世生活录

    仙二代俗世生活录

    他是一个不幸跌落俗世的仙二代,只想在自己的一亩三分地上过着逍遥自在的低调生活。很快,他就头疼了,因为爱他爱的要死的女人和恨不得他立刻去死的敌人实在太多了……
  • 林檎花开时

    林檎花开时

    一笺红尘笔,写不尽刻骨爱恨情,满纸辛酸言,道不尽造化弄人缘。二十年峥嵘岁月,燃尽青春韶华,铅华洗尽,只留下一段爱恨悲愁的记忆。欧阳梦晴,本书主人公之一,一位出生于云贵高原药山脚下牛栏江边大山深处的孱弱少年,年幼丧母,父亲“改嫁”,成为孤儿。在哥哥嫂嫂的帮助下,通过自身努力,考上了位于春之城的省卫校。欧阳梦晴与后妈带来的小妹肖静萍从小青梅竹马,感情一直很好,小妹一直深爱着这位没有一点血缘关系的五哥。不过当欧阳梦晴考取省卫校以后,一切都发生了变化,在学校里,多才多艺的欧阳梦晴与笔友青青之间发生了感人肺腑的纯洁初恋,故事就此展开,杨雪、段琴、肖静萍、吴心兰等一系列改变主人公人生与命运的人物一一登场。
  • 幸福保卫战

    幸福保卫战

    这是一场特殊的战斗,以尊严和幸福为名,在斗志昂扬中执著守望!青年乔乐生是一名出色律师,正当他自信生活尽在掌握的时候,婚礼前的意外车祸改变了他的一切。于是,他“甩掉”未婚妻杨曼,逃避原有生活,到企业打工、收养孤儿,从头开始,打响了一场幸福保卫战。美女设计师董芳是乔的校友,一直暗恋着乔,这两个欢喜冤家在纠结的磨合中越走越近。朋友间的鼓励,亲人间的温暖,使乔乐生终于克服心理障碍,重建幸福生活,并最终与董芳走在了一起。在奔向幸福的途中,他们都走了不少弯路,错过了许多身边的风景,蓦然回首,才发现幸福就在自己手中。
  • 血泪之亡灵

    血泪之亡灵

    在远古的尼罗河流域,曾经因为帝王世家流传下来的一颗圣石从而导致后来地狱之王换届时候的闹剧。以圣石为目标,谁先得到圣石谁就是下一届的地狱之王,于是一场来自于地狱之王三个儿子之间的比赛便开始了。由于力量差异,地狱之子们都无法直接接近圣石。所以他们都不得不去找使者去协助他们得到圣石,于是,一个生活在人类乱世中的农家孩子加尔西亚便被地狱之王的小儿子史塔克盯上了。史塔克一度控制了加尔西亚的思想,并且还给与了加尔西亚无限强大的力量。从那时起加尔西亚便就又得到了噬魂这样一个崭新的名字……
  • 若我执念

    若我执念

    迷糊又不谙世故的林珊在一次酒醉的情况下,无端爬上了一张陌生的床。从此,她和豪门贵公子唐钰瑾结下了不解之缘。先是被认为误会蓄意陷害,接着又是莫名怀孕。在一场接一场的霉运中,她居然轻易获得了唐钰瑾的青睐,同时也被卷入了世仇恩怨中。为了执着留住爱人,唐钰瑾不惜用尽各种伤透她的法子。可是这样虐恋的背后,却是不愿离弃的执念。“若我执念,永不言弃。林珊,你可知我的情非得已。”
  • 异界之魔卡时代

    异界之魔卡时代

    当魔法文明突然崩塌,魔卡文明应运而生。
  • 大漠“猎狐”阿拉曼战役(下)

    大漠“猎狐”阿拉曼战役(下)

    本书讲述非洲二战转折史。前期,由隆美尔所带领的非洲纳粹军团,一路获胜,进逼开罗,危难时刻,英国蒙哥马利将军走马上任,他通过一系列措施迅速扭转时局,并在阿拉曼战役中重创隆美尔军团,从而彻底改变非洲战争局面,导致意大利墨索里尼政府垮台,间接加速了二战的结束进程。
  • 重生之已婚妇女的逆袭

    重生之已婚妇女的逆袭

    26岁已婚妇女苏乐重生回到了15岁,变成了花季美少女,见到了已故的父亲,与曾经暗恋的冷酷长腿欧巴谈起了恋爱,更赚了大钱考上了好学校,被绝色大明星倒追,日子过得有滋有味。可再次遇见前世的老公,她就慌了神了,天啊,老天爷,可不可以都收了?