As Trysdale grimly wrenched apart the seam of his last glove, the crowning instance of his fatuous and tardily mourned egoism came vividly back to him.The scene was the night when he had asked her to come up on his pedestal with him and share his greatness.He could not, now, for the pain of it, allow his mind to dwell upon the memory of her convincing beauty that night--the careless wave of her hair, the tenderness and virginal charm of her looks and words.But they had been enough, and they had brought him to speak.During their conversation she had said:
"And Captain Carruthers tells me that you speak the Spanish language like a native.Why have you hidden this accomplishment from me? Is there anything you do not know?"Now, Carruthers was an idiot.No doubt he (Trysdale) had been guilty (he sometimes did such things) of airing at the club some old, canting Castilian proverb dug from the hotchpotch at the back of dictionaries.
Carruthers, who was one of his incontinent admirers, was the very man to have magnified this exhibition of doubtful erudition.
But, alas! the incense of her admiration had been so sweet and flattering.He allowed the imputation to pass without denial.
Without protest, he allowed her to twine about his brow this spurious bay of Spanish scholarship.He let it grace his conquering head, and, among its soft convolutions, he did not feel the prick of the thorn that was to pierce him later.
How glad, how shy, how tremulous she was! How she fluttered like a snared bird when he laid his mightiness at her feet! He could have sworn, and he could swear now, that unmistakable consent was in her eyes, but, coyly, she would give him no direct answer."I will send you my answer to-morrow," she said; and he, the indulgent, confident victor, smilingly granted the delay.The next day he waited, impatient, in his rooms for the word.At noon her groom came to the door and left the strange cactus in the red earthen jar.There was no note, no message, merely a tag upon the plant bearing a barbarous foreign or botanical name.He waited until night, but her answer did not come.His large pride and hurt vanity kept him from seeking her.
Two evenings later they met at a dinner.Their greetings were conventional, but she looked at him, breathless, wondering, eager.
He was courteous, adamant, waiting her explanation.With womanly swiftness she took her cue from his manner, and turned to snow and ice.Thus, and wider from this on, they had drifted apart.Where was his fault? Who had been to blame? Humbled now, he sought the answer amid the ruins of his self-conceit.If--The voice of the other man in the room, querulously intruding upon his thoughts, aroused him.
"I say, Trysdale, what the deuce is the matter with you? You look unhappy as if you yourself had been married instead of having acted merely as an accomplice.Look at me, another accessory, come two thousand miles on a garlicky, cockroachy banana steamer all the way from South America to connive at the sacrifice--please to observe how lightly my guilt rests upon my shoulders.Only little sister I had, too, and now she's gone.Come now! take something to ease your conscience.""I don't drink just now, thanks," said Trysdale.
"Your brandy," resumed the other, coming over and joining him, "is abominable.Run down to see me some time at Punta Redonda, and try some of our stuff that old Garcia smuggles in.It's worth the, trip.
Hallo! here's an old acquaintance.Wherever did you rake up this cactus, Trysdale?""A present," said Trysdale, "from a friend.Know the species?""Very well.It's a tropical concern.See hundreds of 'em around Punta every day.Here's the name on this tag tied to it.Know any Spanish, Trysdale?""No," said Trysdale, with the bitter wraith of a smile--"Is it Spanish?""Yes.The natives imagine the leaves are reaching out and beckoning to you.They call it by this name--Ventomarme.Name means in English, 'Come and take me.'"
