登陆注册
19097100000036

第36章

Thursdale stood perplexed. He had seen, on the previous day, no trace of jealousy or resentment in his betrothed: he could still hear the candid ring of the girl's praise of Mrs. Vervain. If she were such an abyss ofinsincerity as to dissemble distrust under such frankness, she must at least be more subtle than to bring her doubts to her rival for solution. The situation seemed one through which one could no longer move in a penumbra, and he let in a burst of light with the direct query: "Won't you explain what you mean?"Mrs. Vervain sat silent, not provokingly, as though to prolong his distress, but as if, in the attenuated phraseology he had taught her, it was difficult to find words robust enough to meet his challenge. It was the first time he had ever asked her to explain anything; and she had lived so long in dread of offering elucidations which were not wanted, that she seemed unable to produce one on the spot.

At last she said slowly: "She came to find out if you were really free."Thursdale colored again. "Free?" he stammered, with a sense of physical disgust at contact with such crassness.

"Yes--if I had quite done with you." She smiled in recovered security. "It seems she likes clear outlines; she has a passion for definitions.""Yes--well?" he said, wincing at the echo of his own subtlety.

"Well--and when I told her that you had never belonged to me, she wanted me to define MY status--to know exactly where I had stood all along."Thursdale sat gazing at her intently; his hand was not yet on the clue. "And even when you had told her that--""Even when I had told her that I had HAD no status--that I had never stood anywhere, in any sense she meant," said Mrs. Vervain, slowly-- "even then she wasn't satisfied, it seems."He uttered an uneasy exclamation. "She didn't believe you, you mean?""I mean that she DID believe me: too thoroughly." "Well, then--in God's name, what did she want?" "Something more--those were the words she used.""Something more? Between--between you and me? Is it a conundrum?" He laughed awkwardly.

"Girls are not what they were in my day; they are no longer forbidden to contemplate the relation of the sexes.""So it seems!" he commented. "But since, in this case, there wasn't any--" he broke off, catching the dawn of a revelation in her gaze.

"That's just it. The unpardonable offence has been--in our not offending."He flung himself down despairingly. "I give it up!--What did you tell her?" he burst out with sudden crudeness.

"The exact truth. If I had only known," she broke off with a beseeching tenderness, "won't you believe that I would still have lied for you?""Lied for me? Why on earth should you have lied for either of us?" "To save you--to hide you from her to the last! As I've hidden youfrom myself all these years!" She stood up with a sudden tragic import in her movement. "You believe me capable of that, don't you? If I had only guessed--but I have never known a girl like her; she had the truth out of me with a spring.""The truth that you and I had never--"

"Had never--never in all these years! Oh, she knew why--she measured us both in a flash. She didn't suspect me of having haggled with you--her words pelted me like hail. 'He just took what he wanted--sifted and sorted you to suit his taste. Burnt out the gold and left a heap of cinders. And you let him--you let yourself be cut in bits'--she mixed her metaphors a little-- 'be cut in bits, and used or discarded, while all the while every drop of blood in you belonged to him! But he's Shylock--and you have bled to death of the pound of flesh he has cut out of you.' But she despises me the most, you know--far the most--" Mrs. Vervain ended.

同类推荐
热门推荐
  • 殇.血泪倾心

    殇.血泪倾心

    遥问当年共仗剑,驰隙间,繁华终落歇自恨过这江奈何远一夜思绪一夜灭恐误年华,空赏庭间斑驳若能无念,本无念,应勿念,却误念自负情鉴,自嘲华胥浅短,不堪一面自欺重见,自听梧桐声动,滴进寒阶枝头晏晏,青梅浸月,却负残雪癫云蓝,易水寒,拂断弦,人未觉
  • 青少年应该知道的坦克

    青少年应该知道的坦克

    本书是一部关于陆战之神坦克的小百科全书,是为了满足青少年了解关于坦克知识的需要而编写的,旨在加强和培养青少年的国防意识和爱国情怀,让青少年了解更多的关于坦克的军事知识。
  • 名家眼中的100位中国历史名人

    名家眼中的100位中国历史名人

    不及格的政治家——王春榆点评李自成;他为中国古代隐逸史画了一个圆满的句号——何鸣看黄宗羲;投机分子:失之东隅,收之桑榆——柏杨眼中的吴三桂;伊非寻常女,境界堪绝伦——阎崇年眼中的孝庄;慎之又慎解难题——阎崇年解读康熙;疏于哨鹿,勤先天下——樊树志谈雍正;积极进取的儒士与惊世骇俗的狂怪——孟桢评郑板桥;他掌舵的朝代,盛世与危机并存——范文澜评乾隆……本书收录百篇名家眼中的100位中国历史名人的评论。
  • 中华姓氏大典

    中华姓氏大典

    中华民族是一个历史悠久、人口众多、有灿烂文化、对人类文明 有卓越贡献的伟大民族,是由五十六个人数不等的民族所构成的统一体;这个统一体又是由几千个姓氏细胞所组成。关于民族问题的研究,著述很多;关于姓氏的探讨介绍,却不多见。国人历来重视姓氏。和人初次相见,总是先问“尊姓”;有事同人接触,总是称呼“某同志”、“某先生”。这个“某”,就是对方的姓。“行不更名,坐不改姓”,是做人的尊严。
  • 拯救情感:破译女性情感密码

    拯救情感:破译女性情感密码

    心中的空虚感以及想填满它的心理,会在我们的生命中产生一种不易发觉的目标—一于是我们成为一个追寻者或逃避者。不管我们为其找出任何理由,情人有着如糖尿病般巨大的威力,浸润人们心中的空虚,足以破坏亲密的家庭、破坏人的自信、甚至连继续活下去的意志也会消失殆尽。为什么在现代社会婚外情人现象如此惊人的盛行,冲破中国几千年来的传统禁锢,侵蚀一个个家庭,原因有很多种。
  • 避仙

    避仙

    家为囚笼。洞悉杀机,流浪天涯。茫茫世界中,莫问誓言要闯出自己的一片天地。让这天地中将不再有能威胁到自己族人的存在。至少能让他们自由的活着................
  • 我们是战地救护者

    我们是战地救护者

    小说根据作者亲身经历改编,这是一群胶东农民的儿女在革命战争中战斗、生活和成长的经历,农村青年小刘投笔从戎,作为一名战地卫生员,本着对革命的人道主义精神,在南征北战中救死扶伤,解放战争胜利后,又与战友们相逢在朝鲜战场,上演了一场血与火的生死考验,它从另一个角度再现了战争的历史真相,是又一部集结号!
  • 多么爱不如在一起

    多么爱不如在一起

    本小说从两主人公大学恋爱开始,到参加工作,再到自主创业,既展示了大学校园恣意飞扬的青春,也饱含了人世间的冷暖辛酸在里面。在恋爱、工作、生活等方面,一路坎坷崎岖,他们面对各种困难、突如其来的厄运、疾病,甚至灾难,他们依然十指紧扣,坦然面对、不离不弃、并肩作战,至情,坚忍,执着,生动,感人。
  • 盗门密码

    盗门密码

    风水堪舆之道,观山川地脉,理风水龙气,古代帝王贵胄趋之如骛之术!本书讲述古玩店老板白奇凭借风水之术与一群盗墓者在深山大泽,死亡绝地中寻找宝藏,破解谜团的故事。诡异的龙岭妖冢,秦岭腹地的棺山龙影,大兴安岭深处的雷谷死城,深藏巴楚的不测龙渊......这一切的背后有着怎样的联系?又隐藏着多少千古之谜?不一样的盗墓经历,不一样的探险传奇,一起揭开属于盗墓者的密码!
  • 禅与养生

    禅与养生

    将前人精要有机地融汇组合在自己的认知结构中,化繁为简。相信有兴致的读者详阅后,在很多方面与我会有共同感悟。若能照此修禅、养生,净化心灵,强身治病,延年益寿,善莫大焉。